November 17, 2008
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it was a dusty gray highway
emptied of passers-by
denied the treatment
of a cityscape
and where it ended
was where I found myself, that night
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as I got out the car
the wind swirled around me
and lifted the corners
of my frayed shirt
and in the distance
somewhere there’s an exit, right?
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I jumped up on the ledge
to get a better view
and over the dying hedge
there was nothing new
nothing new
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my lips taste like blood
my ears are ringing
my heart is hurting my head
is this the start
is this the start to being dead?
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it was a dusty gray highway
and the moon was blue
just like last month
oh, she’s so clear
I sat down in the middle
and counted the minutes pass, that night
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grains whipping my salted face
it was so beautiful
I haven’t been since
oh, I’ll never go again
there was nothing new
nothing new
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my lips taste like blood
my ears are ringing
my heart is hurting my head
is this the start
is this the start to being dead?
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I’m almost certain
I’m leaving home, again
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my lips taste like blood
my ears are ringing
my head is hurting my heart
is this the start
is this the start to being dead?
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or am I beginning again?
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Copyright L.M. 2008.
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everyone wants to hold
on to everything
no one wants to let go
of anything, that means
anything, to them
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everyone comes to feel old
and everything
they’ll have to let go
is everything, that means
anything, to them
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Copyright L.M. 2008. (written November 15th, 2008.).
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alternating triangles
feeling pain by proxy
beauty in the limits
seven sisters
bags of black
leaping from the ground
safety safe and sound
beauty in the limits
two listeners
with bags of black
syntax attack
syntax attack
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Copyright L.M. 2008. (written November 15th, 2008.).
November 16, 2008
“Fall For You”
The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I’d never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find
Thanks to http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/secondhandserenade/fallforyou.html for the lyrics.
November 15, 2008
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somewhere in there was a curse
I’m convinced of it
but I can’t prove it, oh no
there was a hint of imposture
and it fosters some pain
makes me feel insane, oh no
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now I’m alone with my feelings
and looking back
kinda does seem bad, you know
let’s just be clear on one thing
a chameleon
doesn’t lie to himself
ohh
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and if you take away
all the times you wouldn’t say
well, it’s easy to believe
but if you write’m down
people see me as a clown
to be easy, to believe
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I don’t wanna be a nighttime lover
and your daytime friend
because you’re lonely
I don’t wanna be a nighttime lover
and someone who
hides around you, no no
I don’t wanna be left behind
when everything starts falling into place
will you still want me by your side?
or just, at night?
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somewhere in there was a curse
yeah I’m sure of it
but I can’t prove it, oh no
there was a hint of imposture
and it fosters some pain
makes me feel insane, oh no
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now I’m alone with my feelings
and looking back
does seem kinda bad, you know
let’s just be clear on one thing
a chameleon
doesn’t hide from himself
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and if you take away
all the times you wouldn’t say
but if you write’m down
I see myself, babe, as a clown
to be easy, to believe
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I don’t wanna be a nighttime lover
and your daytime friend
because you’re lonely
I don’t wanna be a nighttime lover
and someone who
hides around you, no no
I don’t wanna seem like, the jealous type
but when everything starts falling into place
will you still want me by your side?
or just, at night?
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your best daytime friend
‘cuz you’re lonely, oh no
don’t wanna be a nighttime lover
and someone who
is hidden ’round you, no no
I don’t wanna seem like, the jealous type
but when things start to fall into place
I want to know if you can face
the chance that I could be
for you, everything you need
in daytime, as well as, the night
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Copyright L.M. 2008. (Based on the structure of “Love Song” by Sara Bareilles.).
November 8, 2008
if I had my way
I wouldn’t sleep on Friday
I don’t like waking up to
the damp chill of Saturday
if I had my way
life would be warmer
but I’d still rather your chill
than sleeping with my thoughts
tonight
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Copyright L.M. 2008.
I’m not in love with you
I just don’t want anyone else
I might adore you
doesn’t mean I’m off the shelf
I’m not in love with you
don’t believe what my friends say
I got a handful of rocks and I
can’t seem to stop thinking this way
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Copyright L.M. 2008. (Written November 2nd, 2008.).
November 7, 2008
you’ll never know it’s selfish
until it’s done to you
self-centered society
has made its mark on you
you yielding to temptation
shows no integrity
even if your intention
was never to hurt me
I will not let you hurt me
I will not let it stand
I will not let you stand there
and take my shaking hand
I will not let you hurt me
you’ll never ever see
I will not let you witness
a tear escape from me
I know I’m not perfection
at least to everyone
but I know I am the best thing
that’ll happen to someone
and for that moment I can
thank you now for this
this pain makes me appreciate
my future lover’s kiss
and as a new day brightens
my smile awaits the morn
my burdens have been lightened
my guiding path well-worn
so I’ll stare at my sun
and absorb every feeling
take solace that to someone
I will be everything
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Copyright L.M. 2008.
November 3, 2008
Tomorrow came too soon
I barely made it through today
Still empty inside
I guess nothing’s really changed
I’m still afraid to feel
‘Cause I cannot take the pain
I’m still afraid to feel
Afraid to lose someone again
I wish that somehow
I could leave
My past behind
My fears behind
If I could only breathe you in
Every drop of you
I guess it’s time to face the truth
And admit my past mistakes
Come to terms with all that’s wrong with me
And all the things I’ll never be
Why am I afraid to feel?
Afraid of what is true?
Why am I afraid to feel?
When all I really want is you?
To taste your skin
To share your thoughts
Would never be enough for me
you said I’d get tired of the roots
and you may be right
I haven’t been nearly enough places
to know how to feel
I haven’t done nearly enough things
haven’t tasted the world
so I should go
you know I said the same about you
and maybe I’m right too
you haven’t seen enough faces
to know how to feel
haven’t broke out your wings
haven’t wasted your world
so I should go
and we know when I leave
I’ll wish you would chase
but in reality
you’re forgetting my face
and it’s easy to see
why I think it’s poor taste
to think it’s better to’ve loved and lost
they couldn’t have known the cost
so I should go
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Copyright L.M. 2008. (As a side note, I strongly dislike the word “should”.).
